FATHER HAD TO GO TO SWAMI'S HANDS

If you have read my earlier post you will understand why my family and I are afraid of the month of December.

My brother became quiet ill on the 1st of November 2009. He was warded for almost a month for his diabetic problem. We then requested my brother to stay with my parents so that he can also enjoy the healthy food mum prepared for my dad.

My brother was discharged from the hospital and fulfilled our request and moved in temporarily to my parents home. Amma took care of the two favorite men in her life. Father and brother spent quality time together after so many years.

8th December 2009

Went to visit my parents and Amma told me that father is not feeling so well. Talked to my parents and left for home.

9th December 2009
It was almost lunch time and I told my husband that I was not feeling so happy because my dad was not feeling so well. My husband asked me to call Amma and ask her if she wanted to take father to the hospital. I asked my mother and she said that father must be taken to the hospital and they will be ready in within an hour time.

We then rushed to my parents home to take father to the hospital.The doctor at the emergency ward told us that father must be admitted for further test. The doctor told my dad that they are planning to fix a phase-maker for my dad. Father was so excited that he asked me to reconfirm with the doctor about the phase-maker. I spoke to the doctor and the doctor told me " His heart is weak and we might want to suggest a phase-maker". I immediately told father of the doctor's words. He seemed so happy and said that his heart was going to be stronger after the treatment.

12th December 2009

Visited father and mother at the hospital with my younger sister . We brought lunch for Amma. Amma told us that Father wanted some tid-bits so we went to the shop in the hospital and bought some snacks for both our parents. Father looked ok and Amma told us that Father was going to take his bath. Father joked with both of us and we left. Left without realising that will be our last conversation with our beloved father.

13th December 2009

Being a Sunday,woke up as usual to go to my Parent's place. I decided to go to my parent's place before visiting my father at the hospital because I wanted to make sure that my brother was alright. Reached my parent's home, checked on my brother and went out a little while to attend to my house rent and security payments. Came back to mum's place to prepare lunch with my younger sister so that I can take some food for my mother who is accompanying my dad in the hospital.

It was about 2pm and I was hurrying my husband to take me to the hospital because it was past lunch hour and mum might be hungry. My husband rushed and reached the hospital in about 20 minutes. I requested my husband to take care of my son because I wanted to spend extra time with my parents. He agreed to take my son to the play land and will call me in few hours time to pick me up.

I took the lift to go to the 3rd floor of the National Heart Institute where my dad was being treated. I opened the room door where my dad was in and I told my mum" Sorry I am Late". I saw my mum suddenly panicking and looked at my dad. He saw me coming in and all of a sudden he was looking upwards and was breathing heavily. I was practically screaming calling my dad and I rushed to the nurse outside and called her. Came back into my dad's room and saw dad breathing very slowly. The doctors came rushing to the room and asked me and mum to wait outside the room. My body was shaking and Amma was even more shaking. We were praying so hard.

Called my brother and sisters to inform that dad is in a serious condition. Called my husband to come to the hospital immediately. Both my sisters rushed to the hospital . My brother could not come due to the surgery on his foot. We were all waiting eagerly outside the room my dad was being treated. I saw the doctors and nurses pumping my father's chest and after a few minutes just before my sisters ,my brother in law and my husband arrived , a doctor came out of the room and informed me and my mother that my dad's heart has stopped beating. However they were trying their level best to revive him. The chances were very slim he said.

This was the worst moment in my life. The day that I was so afraid to face finally came and I would say this is the worst feeling any child could feel. We were all waiting and at 3.00pm a nurse confirmed that my dad had passed away. We were all screaming and could not bear to see our father lying on the bed motionless. That was the end of my world. I lost my hero, my best friend, my mentor, my consultant , the best and greatest dad. Mother was in a state of shock. We took mum back and the rest were making arrangements to take our beloved father back home.

It was December, the month I was always afraid of and my dad had to leave and go to the hands of Swami. The worst part was none of us remembered to place swami's healing photo this time.

The pain and sorrow we are going through is unexplainable and unbearable. The shock, the hurt,the sadness and the pain.Will it ever subside? I don't think so.

I thank my dearest swami for giving us a two year bonus for us to spend with our father and I know my beloved dad is in swami's kind hands. I must say and admit the only thing that is keeping the family going is Swami's love.

Jai Sai Ram.

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Another Miracle -My Wedding

I fell in love with my husband when I was 19 years old and married him at the age of 39 years old. Thanks to Swami's Miracle.

I am a South Indian and my husband is a North Indian.We fell in love the first time we saw each other. We did not think what were the complications ahead of us, all we knew all that time was the love we had for one another. We were madly in love that we had to meet everyday without fail.

I will try to make this long story short. Although I met my husband first, my older sister, my brother and my younger sister got married earlier. I had family friends and relatives questioning and some even made fun of me during my younger sister's wedding. They were saying that I was not attractive that is why I don't have a life partner yet. Many did not know that I found my life partner first and he was there beside me during my younger sister's wedding.There were few kind people who knew about us.

We could not or did not get married because my mother-in-law(present) did not give her consent and blessing to my husband to marry me. She was against his choice and we waited almost 20 years before we actually got married.

It was New Years Eve 2003, everyone was excited to welcome the New Year except me. My younger sister was expecting her first baby in few month's time. She was more than happy. All of them were getting ready to attend the new Year prayers but I did not feel like going. I preferred to stay and pray at home.

When the clock struck 12am - 1st January 2003, I went to the Swami's Photo in my house and I broke down and cried. I asked swami how long will I have to wait to marry my husband. I prayed so hard and asked swami to appear in my mother in law's dream or some how make her agree to give her blessing for our marriage.

On 23rd April 2003 - I could not believe my ears when my husband told me that my mother-in law finally agreed for us to be married and wanted to see me the next day. I was so happy cos I had two things to celebrate. My sister gave birth to a beautiful baby girl and I am actually getting married soon.

Our simple wedding took place on 24th August 2003 by a special Swamiji who is no longer alive. I am so grateful to Swami and Swamiji that made our wedding possible.

I am happily married for six years now and have an adorable son. My mother in law loves me very much now and is very happy that she is blessed with a grandson by me.

All you have to do is take one step towards Swami and Swami will take hundred steps towards you.

OM SAI RAM

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Swami and Me

I was introduced to Swami by my parents when I was about 7-8 years old. I did not feel what others (friends and relatives)around me felt about Swami. I liked swami instantly and now I love him more than ever. I used to have friends and relatives frequently asking me questions, mostly doubtful questions. " Why are you praying to human ?" "Why is he living in luxury" So many questions that often irritated me. I used to argue and prove my points until I read one of Swami's book asking devotees not to defend swami.

During my daily prayers I often requested to swami that I wish to see him in person some day and my wish finally came true in the 1995. I was 30 years old then. I was nervous , excited, happy, anxious, and had many more mixed feelings when I was on the flight to Bangalore, India. I went with my parents,my younger sister and a few friends. During that time I was actually deep inside fighting a battle with Swami for an incident that happened in my life. Questioning Swami of why did he allow such things to happen to his devotee? I had a small challenge within me ,that if swami really knows that I exist he must look into my eyes when I meet him. I knew that was a lot to ask when there were thousands of people out there to see Swami. How it is possible for Swami to come in front of me and look into my eyes. That was my challenge to Swami to prove that he knew I existed and the bitter situation I experienced.

We reached Bangalore and checked in into our apartments. There were no beds but we bought some blankets and managed on the floor. Swami place was like heaven so beautiful and I could feel the peace and love everywhere. Following is my brief experience in Puttaparthi.

My first encounter with Swami, The first Darshan (sighting of the lord)

Day 1 - Swami came out for darshan at about 4 to 5 pm. I cannot recall the time as it is has been some time now. I could not control the tears rolling down my my cheeks. I was over joyed to see swami. I was not the only one in tears, my younger sister was sobbing. Swami walked pass by and we had a glance of the small built figure. An experience that cannot be put into words. Swami did not look into my eyes.

Day 2- My sister mentioned" how nice would it be if we could hear swami's voice".Within a few minutes we were told that swami was giving a short discourse. We heard swami's voice and another friend of us said " now that we have heard swami's voice, how nice if we could listen to swami singing bhajans". True enough after the discourse swami sang " Hari Bajana Bina Sukha Shanthi Nahi". Sobbing started among us, this time even longer and louder. Swami did not look into my eyes.

Day 3- If I am not mistaken it was Valentine's day and our group decided to make a Valentine's Day Card for swami. Swami accepted our card from the men group . Swami threw sweets to the devotees seated and I was lucky to grab a few. Still Swami did not look into my eyes.

Day 4- The next morning darshan I managed to collect more sweets. In total I collected 10 sweets from swami. Swami did not look into my eyes. I was challenging swami mentally. "Proof to me that Swami knows I am here" I kept whispering to my self. Upset and felt terrible because we were leaving the next day. Evening Darshan was my only hope and swami walked using another path but suddenly turned and took the path where we were seated. Swami walked straight towards us and stood right in front of us and guess what Swami finally did look into my eyes. Such power of loved flowed through my body. I was stunned for a while later . I was more then happy but felt ashamed for challenging the Lord.

Left for home feeling very happy and satisfied. The experience I had is worth more than any wealth that I have now.

True experience By: Selvia Selva Ryan

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FEW OF SAI BABA'S QUOTES

I have come not to disturb or destroy any faith, but to confirm each in his own faith - so that the Christian becomes a better Christian, the Muslim, a better Muslim, and the Hindu, a better Hindu.

Hands that help are holier than lips that pray.

There is only one religion, the religion of Love;

There is only one language, the language of the Heart;

There is only one caste, the caste of Humanity;

There is only one law, the law of Karma;

There is only one God, He is Omnipresent

Love in thought is Truth;

Love in action is Right Conduct;

Love in understanding is Peace;

Love in feeling is Non-Violence.

Start the Day with Love;

Spend the Day with Love;

Fill the Day with Love;

End the Day with Love;

This is the way to God.

If there is righteousness in the heart,

There will be beauty in the character.

If there is beauty in the character,

There will be harmony in the home.

When there is harmony in the home,

There will be order in the nation.

When there is order in the nation,

There will be peace in the world.

The Grace of God is like insurance. It will help you in your time of need without any limit.

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MIRACLES OF ALL MIRACLES FOR ME

SWAMI'S HEALING PHOTO

I grew up in a very attached family. We were not close to anyone else but ourselves. I have beautiful and understanding parents, a ever loving brother, an older sister and my sweet little sister. We could not bear to see anyone of us hurt. We loved each other abundantly.

As year passed thing changed gradually, one by one started their own family and now things have changed drastically.My parents are much older now and my father is a heart patient and had undergone a by-pass surgery about 14 years back.

I am telling you this story because I personally have experienced swami's miracle. I have come across so many negative articles about swami but I will never move an inch from my believe and faith in Swami

22nd December 2007

My father has been unwell since his brother passed away on 17th November 2007. He was taking it very badly because this was only brother that was with him. All the other siblings are in overseas.

On 22nd December 2007 at about 9 o'clock in the morning, my dad was having slight difficulty breathing so we called our family doctor to come and have a look at him. The doctor explained that my father had some water retention in his lungs and gave some medicine for him to take immediately.

My brother prepared some food for father and we gave him the medicine. After a few minutes my father started breathing heavily. All of us panicked and rushed to him to the hospital. When we reached the hospital my father was immediately taken to the emergency. The doctors were walking in and out of the room. We were all in tears and consoling my mum was not an easy task.

The doctors came to us after a few hours.One of the doctor scolded us for not bringing my father immediately when he first had difficulty breathing .They rushed him to the ICU. (Intensive Care Unit). My father was taken in a stretcher with the breathing apparatus and I will never forget that scene as long I live. It was scary.

We were all waiting outside until one of the doctor approached us and told us that he needed to speak with the entire family members. My heart beat was beating faster and faster. My sisters were a in tears . My mother was panicking like anything. My brother was a little calm until the doctor mentioned these exact words "All of you have to be brave to listen to what I have got to say. He asked us to introduce our selves and he finally mentioned the worst thingI have ever heard "He will not last the night. He has lived this long and have beautiful children and grandchildren so you all must accept this". I was screaming my heart out hugging my husband. My brother broke into tears, my mum was stunned, my younger and elder sister broke down.

Then came a phone call from my family doctor and we told him what the doctor had just said. I will not forget our doctor's words " Please don't give up hope ,there is chance for him to live, pray hard for him and there are patients who have come out of such situations, just pray for him." My fathers's blood pressure and heart rate readings were not good. They fixed so many machines to his body. The doctors had to make a hole in his neck and six different types of strong drugs were given through the hole in the neck. I felt terrible to see my dad in that situation.

I was going mad and could not accept what the doctor said. We had to wait in the waiting room and only allowed to see him one by one. Suddenly my husband suggested that we rush home and take swami's healing photo and place it at my father's bed. We rushed as fast as we could , took the photo and rushed back to the hospital. Gave the photo to my mum who was totally down. We told her to make sure that photo is kept on father's pillow.

My brother did not allow me to stay back at the hospital even though I wanted to be there badly.He said that I must take my little baby home and he will call me from time to time to let me know of father's condition. My brother in law (my younger sister husband ) consoled us asking us not to worry and assured that father is going to make it and said "He will come back home".

I could not sleep the whole night but my husband kept consoling me asking me to have faith and swami will heal my dad. The next morning as soon as I woke up I was in tears cos I did not hear anything from my brother which means my dad made it through the night.I got ready very early and rushed to the hospital. We were all waiting anxiously for the doctor to come . A doctor came out and asked " Patient on bed number? We told him the bed number and he said "She is ok compared to yesterday. He kept mentioning she this and she that until my brother-in-law interrupted and said . "Our patient is a male and you keep saying she." The doctor then asked for my father's name and went in to check again. This was more than torture, the doctor was talking about the wrong patient all the while.

The doctor came back later and said my dad is still under observation and his readings are slowly picking up but he is still categorized as critical. He was later moved to the normal ward but again father frightened all of us when he started vomiting blood. He was rushed to the ICU, swami's healing photo followed my dad where ever he went. The vomiting slowly stopped and he was allowed to go back after few weeks We thanked swami for healing my father. My father slowly recovered. Although the strong drugs made my dad talk so many irrelevant things for some time, we are so grateful to swami for giving our loving father back to us. What will anyone call this? I will 100% say that it was one of swami's miracle that my father came out of that situation.

December 22nd 2008 father was again warded due to some complications. Swami's photo helped again. He slowly recovered and is now at home reading all his favourite books. I am very scared when December comes at the same time I know swami is always there.

This is miracles of all miracles for me.

True story and experience by : Selvia Selva Ryan

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